Hi
Before i start i will apollogise now as this is going to probably be a very long post.
Very interesting one too, probably one you wont have answers too.
But i need to try find out before i go crazy.
here goes...going back to 7 years ago i met my boyfriend and after we had our son,
He then slowly came out and introduced he liked to crossdresss.
By coaxing me in gently, hes the most loving guy anyone could meet,
So yes i fell i was deeply in love with him and had a 1 year old little boy.
We got engaged but never ended up been married.
But I was really starting to enjoy the new person in our lives Bella she was called.
I then fell pregnant with the most amazing baby girl.And we was happy for a while and focused on the kids.
But things changed Bella she got too needy and full on and very high sex drive and i was feeling so intimidated by her
more she pushed more i backed away.She used to go bed alone and masturbate etc then i would go bed wondering who i was sleeping with.
I resented her but loved him.
In the end to save our relationship he moved out just up road.
And we been doing really well family days with kids etc.
Then like all relationships things change.
And in December He told me it was over.I was relieved Bella had gone i hated her.
But i was devastated i had lost my soul mate.
I knew he had gone into denial so i confronted him and he admitted he liked to dress and i wasnt there for her.
We agreed that it wasnt the dressing that bothered me, it was who bella had become.
We then said we could try a different approach and dress more casual and calmer
and then we agreed on a name.Chrissie.
We been doing really well but i had noticed all these years sex was like 3 of us there and i never knew who i was with at times.
always had to reach for bra or pantys or lippy on .our sex life suffered badly for me but Chrissie was thriving.
she even slept in nighty saying happy to be me.
Any ways me and her got close and she then got more needy and full on and sexual.
Now after 8 months of trying Hes broken up with me and left me with 2 children 6 and 5 that we both put first with all our heart.
He says now he cant handle been around me unless hes dressed as Chrissie.
But dont want a atmosphere around the children.
Now he rings me and asks me to go talk or comes here and soon as hes here he as to change to her to be able to be around me.
This is totally killing me as he wants sex while hes her and i have got used to her but next day hes ashamed and i feel like was a 1 night stand.
He cant be around me till hes wearing jewelry or something of hers.
Says we are done,And he wantsto be happy as a male.
But refuses to get rid of her. And says he cant be near me cos i bring her out in him.
Now in 2 weeks our daughters 5 and we booked 10 day holiday All paid for at seaside for her,Kids are so excited,
but Hes struggling to be around me now.
And says he cant do this.He tells me he cares for me and always will.
i know he does hes 45 and im 47 we both have adult kids too.
Hes just told his kids and they fine with him dressing.
Apperently his dad is a secretive crossdresser too and i just found out.
but hes so secretive only i knew tillnow and hes told his eldest kids.
both in thier 20sBut we refuse to put this infront of our little ones.
So we suffer in silence and really struggling.
He says he wants to live as a man and hes trying to. But if he talks to me he has to be around me as her.
Hes even walked on dressed as chrissie,to my home after hours of talking on vid phone.
im about a mile away and he enjoys the walk,at anytime at night.But dreads to be seen.
He hates what hes doing to me as he knows chrissies selfish, But he cant control her and i hear sorry so many times.
and i am getting hurt more and more every text and call and we have to communicate for our little ones.
If anyone as got the answers to this please tell me cos i am going out of my mind and so is he.
Hes been so low and mentioned suicide at times, and i been honest so have i but we wont cos our kids come first.
Top and bottom of this is we both suffering in silence please can anyone help us.
wiseyes