I'm slowly being outed at work. It's my fault, if I were to be completely honest. I knew the risk of posting my pictures online, particularly Facebook. A have a profile strictly for Stefani, and I've blocked my male ego, along with as many people as I can think of, particularly my family and friends. Be that as it may, there has been a few people find out.
I already told one friend, Veronica, who admitted to me to being bisexual. She's not shy about it. She's very open about it, and under the influence of a couple of beers, at our local watering hole, I told her. I later told another girl, Veronica's friend, who once worked with us. I think she told a guy we work with because I found out on Saturday, from Sabrina, that he had showed her a picture of me, as Stefani, presumably from my Facebook, or some other site such as Flickr.
And the week after I came back from OKC, another friend, Ruth, said that she had seen a picture of someone on Facebook, and asked if that was me. I knew Ruth wouldn't care, so I admitted it, much to her delight. Then she hit me for not telling her. We talked about it for a bit, which was hard considering everyone coming and going.
I confided in one other person, seeing that people are finding out about it, and Kait was totally okay with it, informing me that I've been showing up on people's profile for several months. That freaked me out so much that I texted Veronica who told me that she had warned me that it was going to happen. I knew she was right, and I knew it was inevitable, but it was still a shock.
So Monday morning, I decided to walk in and talk to my store manager and confide the fact that I am transgender, though I am not sure I want to transition at this time. She was shocked, amazed, but at the same time please that I trusted her enough to tell her. She promised that it wouldn't be an issue, understanding my struggle as she herself is a lesbian, whose wife's sibling is also transgender.
So my manager has my back, and I'm unsure as to how many people know about me as Stefani. I came to the conclusion that if I'm widely known, no one has made an issue of it, and therefore I should relax. It's scary, but at the same time it's so freeing to lift the veil a little more. I never thought I would get here, and I'm wondering how much further I will go.