I’m certain that this is a topic that’s been discussed a thousand times over a thousand on this site.
What I would like to know is how everybody [or “anybody” I should say] can muster the bravery enough to confidently go outside and be themselves [or whatever the case may be, depending on personal situation] among the public eyes. I have a mild case of agoraphobia, which some might call paranoia [which would only be slightly incorrect], and I get heart palpitations and a headache just getting some groceries. I can’t fathom being “Matty” anywhere outside of my home.
As it says on the tin, I would just like to know how others can summon the courage to be among other people in their getup. Is it merely just a matter of practice, or is there some magickal snap-of-the-fingers thing to help? The tricks I employ to regenerate my positivity are too slow going to be of any assistance.
I only ask because for some months I’ve been planning a road trip for myself and a couple friends from high school days for this coming October, and it was my intention to “be Matty” at our destination, if not during the trip entirely. I know my friends are open-minded enough to accept my crossdressing [in spite of our lack of communication], but I’m not so sure about the rest of the world. I’m still terrified of everything around me; I’m tempted to purchase some precautionary measures, but that might be too much.