The last time I posted here was months ago and I was asking advice on whether or not I should tell my girlfriend about my cross dressing. I've been poking around the subject with her since then and I know there is absolutely no way she will approve. I've really beaten around the bush on the subject many, many times and she always shoots it down. Her negative behavior towards trans women on the news and other outlets tells me she will never approve and most likely wont be around anymore if I do come out to her. This is heart breaking for me because we have fallen deeply love with each other. I haven't dressed in about 7 months but I really want to, I ended up purging at the start of our relationship due to the guilt I felt of hiding something behind her back.
This is who I am but I dont want to ruin this relationship over my selfish cross-dressing needs. However, at the same time I feel I need to express myself in this way... Suppressing this side of me is really starting to effect my self esteem. If I break up with her I know she will be devastated and so will I but I feel like I need to live my life. Any advice is appreciated.
Hugs,
Jessica