MAYBE is the key word. Maybe not, as well. Way too many possibilities.
Some thoughts:
There is also the possibility that having the desire to perform sexual acts on a man isn't sexual at all, but stems from another feeling entirely. As a kid, I was in a situation where the only time I felt safe was when I was with my abuser, and he was my only source of affection as well. So I wound up linking feeling safe and loved, with basically being a girl for him. Do that for seven years, and it kind of gets stuck in your mind forever. As that time went on, I actually wanted to do those things....all because I craved the love and affection that I could get nowhere else (not to mention, that when I was with him were the only times I wasn't worried about being hit by someone). As I grew into my teens, and continued to crossdress, my sex drive ramped up and I thought I was gay, feeling horny and wanting to behave as a girl at the same time (well, at that point I was horny all the time, sooooo, pretty natural assumption). The weirdness was that although I wanted to have sex as a girl, all the objects of affection, all my crushes, were girls as well. And I had a repulsion towards men. I never felt the urge to kiss a man; the thought had the 'uck' factor. Which is what set me on the search for the 'WTF is wrong with me' hunger for psychological knowledge to figure myself out.I think there's a latent homosexual factor that comes out for some when they dress in female attire. And it may take years of dressing before this realization happens.
I'm not suggesting that every case of wanting to do something that appears to be a sexual behavior to a male stems from being abused as a kid; but that it can come from desires other than sexual (as in my case, I was too young to have any sex drive, so the 'reward' feelings of the behavior weren't romantic or sexual gratification linked for me at all). Men are such horny creatures that it's easy to mistake a feeling as sexual just because you're horny when the other feeling occurs at the same time.
So, Suzzi, what you're going to have to figure out first, is whether you're turned on by men, or just the idea of having sex as a girl.
A quick n easy way to know which way you lean, is this: When you sit on the beach, and a hot girl is coming from one direction, and a hot guy is coming from the other, which way to you look?