Hello girlfriends here. I think maybe you need to talk me off the crossdressing ledge. Since I'm in the closet and do most of my dressing at home, except for the few usual late evening sneak-outs in the car and a few strolls around almost empty shopping areas that we all probably started with, I am lately feeling like I am only playing dress-up, and not as committed to "real" crossdressing as some of you might be here.
By that I mean, I am working on my appearance, and clothes and such to present in public more (which I am enjoying), yet I feel like perhaps I am not capable or have it in me emotionally of really interacting with the public as a female, or for that matter as an obvious "transgender" guy dressed as a female. I read some of those stories here of girls interacting with the public and I think" Gee, I don't think I could ever do that". It's like I know that female is within there somewhere inside me, but I wonder if she will ever interact in public. Maybe going to one of those CD events might help, I dunno. Anyway, at times it makes me think I am only a fetish dresser, not more of transgender CD, and that actually makes me a little sad. (I don't even like most of the fetish style clothes, I prefer regular women fashions). Any of Y'all feel this way? It brings me down sometimes - thx and love -Annie.