I didn't want to hi-jack Deebra's thread , " Wonder what makes ?" but I had to ask the question after reading some of the replies are some members in denial ?
I know I'm asking this from my own point of view and it relates to how much of a rocky road has it been for you. All I know is since the age of 8-9 years I've had a gut feeling that has gnawed at me every day since. For some that are gender fluid and maybe in an accepting realtionship with their partner the need to know may not be as important.
The feeling I get from some members is they are reluctant to use certain words as if they're talking about someone else , even questioning if they are CDers at all. Lets face it we are all adults and as Cders do something slightly strange compared with most men, to apparently ignore the why's and wherefores has to be a denial of that part of our being. " I go out dressed but when I return it all goes back into the closet and I return to my male state " . There has to be an explanation for that and I find it unfair that you don't try and understand it for yourself so you can explain it to your partner. Don't you find it insulting to your wife and family to try and brush it off as lightly as you do, they may appear to be OK about it but possibly don't want to upset you.
I might be in a DADT situation but I'm sure my wife appreciates that I've done my best to find out what makes me tick to assure her that I'm not gay and don't want to transition. She knows that I'm bi-gender and I have GD , looking back she knows she gave me a tough time finding it all out by facing counselling alone.
I'm sure some members reading this may say I'm the one in denial and suppressing the TS thoughts, I do know the line is very thin for me, I just feel it's about as good as it gets for me at the moment taking my age into account.
I do wonder if you posted Deebra's question in the TS section how different the answers would be, maybe some TSs would like to give us their opinion.