What I want more than becoming a woman or at least expanding my journey in that direction, is to keep my wife and family, so the decision to not engage hormones and to accept that there will be limits, as hard as that can be, was one I had to make.
Accepting this over the last year has led to real benefits and a much more harmonious relationship, I make an effort to be the man she wants ...most of the time,,,and once a week , and sometimes a little more I get to unfurl my wings and outwardly express my true inner feelings.
One of the things that I have a yearning to do is to blend the two facets of my life as closely as possible into one....the world may see two different genders even people, but I am very much a constant one person...I am sure many on here understand this, for me dressing is an expression of our true selves not becoming a new person...
Whilst reality dictates that we have to " dress up" to achieve a feminine appearance I want to limit the this to make up and clothes and so I have started the evolution of trying to grow and style my hair to something that can allow me to function in both genders, but face some serious obstacles...mother nature who is clearly trans phobic, work (sales consultant) and of course those amongst my friends and family who don't know and are constantly questioning what is going on. In addition to this is the fact that my feminine appearance has taken a hit and looks wise I have regressed in progress as I no longer wear my wig with its flowing hair permanently styled and all the advantages that gives a masculine face....but what I do get is the sense of being truly me regardless of how it looks. Below is where I am at at the momment
How have others faced this issue... I am sure I am not the only one..!!