I don't know if I can be transgender (transsexual) or CD so here goes. I am 25, born male, and sometimes I get the longing to express, dress, and feel like a woman.
- I know I'm most likely not transsexual, but sometimes I do think about wanting to use hormones in the future.
- I not only long for feminine clothes, but also female body shape. I remember when I was still in high school, I use to look to the girls, not only did I find them attractive to me, I actually had a slight feeling of longing for that sort of stuff myself.
- I never seriously disliked my male body or social role. I guess there are certain things that may "disqualify" my manhood (being on the shorter side as a guy).
- Related to the body issue above, I want to be able to dress in swimwear (both top and bottom) associated with the opposite gender someday, and I really crave the body to pull it off good. Hormones sound like the least "fake" idea for that.
Besides all this, I know that I can't be transsexual. I never knew this for my whole life, I had no sense of being "different" in that way. If I did, I feel my parents will be much more supportive.