So I'm gay but like to dress up - my ex was bisexual so didn't mind if I was dressed up as Ryan or Chanel during night outs and sex, he literally couldn't have cared less since he liked me for who I am etc.
Since breaking up last year I've gone out dressed up more and more and more - most of the time I'll end up kissing straight boys but do a runner obv before they realise I'm a boy since I don't want a black eye.
But on apps such as Grindr whenever I have my profile pic as Chanel, I have profiles message me, these 'straight men' who message me talking to me as though I'm a woman, calling me beautiful saying they'd love to take me on a date dressed up etc - but every single time I agree to meet them they just come round for a quick shag and then either try and block me or just never talk to me again - I always then find out later on that they've got girlfriends, wives and kids and every time I hope it's gonna be different but it just seems I'm their dirty little secret. One guy who is the most gorgeous guy I've ever seen I've been meeting at least once a week for a month now I really didn't think he was the same as the rest - he's been buying me clothes and whilst we have sex he literally stares into my eyes and tells me I'm beautiful - I just put his phone number into facebook to be nosey and ONCE AGAIN he has a gf and kid.
It makes me feel so crap about myself :'(