Hi everyone. It has been a long time since I have posted a thread. I check posts once in a while but life has been busy and I think I needed to step away for a break. My brain needed to let go of constant banter about whether I or someone else is trans. I do keep up with a few ladies from here regularly in a different way.
I just wanted to say that yes it is difficult to transition. Standing up and saying your truth to the world will stretch you to your limit. It also teaches so many great lessons. I think the biggest one I face every day is that I am not the center of the universe even if I am in the middle of this great transition. I am still a parent and a spouse. It is very difficult to maintain balance given the enormous self examination needed to attempt this. Often I have been self centered as I was driven to climb that mountain.
Physically I am almost back to myself. My SRS and BA was May 13th which seems like a lifetime ago. The Estrogen has kicked in and I feel somehow satisfied. Things just seem right now. Warning, this has been accompanied by a 25 pound weight gain. Thank God I had just run Boston 3 weeks before surgery. I will be running another marathon in August and training begins in ernest after Christmas.
I guess I just wanted to say hello and that yes there is life after transition. I have paid a great price and it is worth it. How many times in life do we get to concretely say that? I have attached a picture of me and my son today. He continues to maze me and teach me acceptance every day!