I guess for me having spent so much of my life feeling ashamed of the sexual excitement I got from wearing something feminine. Then settling into off and on wearing panties in private still with the feelings of guilt and shame. Then about 4 years ago having "the talk" with my wife and her not just accepting but pushing me to open up about things. Then her starting to give me feminine things to "try" and continuing to tell me it isn't something I need to be embaressed or ashamed of that she loves all of me and this is part of me. To actually feeling very comfortable and natural being dressed fully with her. As this thing between us started to grow she told me I was a much easier person to get along with that I had started to become a grumpy old man and that she didn't want to be married to a grumpy old man. Now when there has been some time of me not dressing ( outside forces preventing it) she's started to comment that maybe its time for jean to be around. Meaning that the grumpy/ bitchy person was showing. So that being said I guess there is some sort of need to my dressing.