I had an unexpected dress weekend, on Saturday morning I was getting all girled up when I went to fill my bra. I'm still in water balloons stage and when I picked one up it broke in my hand and caused water everywhere. As I was cleaning up my wife asked me what other option I have concerning breast. I told her there are breast forms but are expensive for the amount of time I dress. She asked what do your friends on the community use, I told her I don't know and maybe I should ask.
She asked me if the crossdressing store we went to a few times had them, I told her they did. My wife had a few things to do and depending on her day maybe we would go later.
I went to that store a few times, the first time I bought my first heels and when I was about to try them on she asked me if I wanted a knee high, I told the sales lady I was already wearing pantyhose but I was embarrassed to remove my socks in front of her. She told me not to be shy and if anyone else comes in there they are here for the same reason as me. I did it and it was my first time I exposed myself to a stranger , the last time there I bought a wig and she told me the next time I go I should go fully dressed.
I told my wife if we go I want to go fully dressed, and she had no problem as long as I didn't leave the house dressed. My wife came home later in the day and asked if I want to go, but I could see she was tierd and told her to just relax and enjoy her day off.
Sunday morning she asked me again, I told her as much as this would be a dream come true and that because of her I'm already living in a dream I could have never imagined. I thought about it,and thought about it, and wanted so bad to do this, but decided not to. I told my wife when I told her about the dressing thirty plus years ago, she asked me if I could be happy in the closet. I told her I will keep to my promise even though I did walk out the door a few times and told her I won't put her threw this.
She told me there's usally parking ten steps from the front door and she would walk with me holding my hand and be with me every step of the way. I was flattered and a little watery eyed and told her it's a big risk I wasn't ready to take.
I think about it today and can't believe I wanted to do something so bad and when it finally came I thought it wasn't a good idea, it would have been amazing and on the same note I would have been paranoid that I would be outed. Kicking myself in the rear but believe I made the right decision. Thanks for listening and maybe next time I will have a " I did it story"