Nothing is "weird", and I sincerely hope you don't feel judged by anyone in this forum. The crossdresssing urge grows for many here because they just keep going down the rabbit hole to their own personal depth, which is different for everyone. The mechanism appears to be that at the beginning of self acceptance, one admits interest in only a small amount of clothing, but quickly finds they have opened a Pandora's closet, and down the hole they go. Some go as far as FTM transition. Others find panties are sufficient. You get to choose. Don't accept anyone's judgement.
Your urge has been much the same for a long time. Why should you expect it to change now?