Its now been a week since my fabulous Las Vegas makeover and Im still thinking about how much I really enjoyed doing it. Being what I do now I consider myself a Trans-gendered person its so hard to explain this to anyone in how one feels doing something that would be considered so unmanly.
The experience of sitting there and learning how to make oneself look pretty is something you just cant explain to the normals, especially men.
This part of me and many of you is usually a life long struggle that seems to have no explanation or reason for being. It becomes a part of us usually at a young age.
Once we are adults and have a family it stays with us and many times it just gets in the way of ones family life but yet the desire or whatever remains.
Ive been to many a counseling session and while there have been a few moments that seem to help me think maybe thats why, mostly there is no reason and I finally realized it just is, and I just have to manage it the best I can.
Ive come to even read that most in the counseling world say there just isnt a right or wrong solution to those who are trans.
Im not sure why Im sharing these feelings here but I thought maybe it can help others with their thoughts as to where they are and how they feel when the things they do or enjoy are so far outside the realm of manhood.
Ive always considered this a place to share because we are so alike and yet so different.
I find myself wanting to meet everyone here and just being their friend when I see a post where you can tell their hurting or not dealing well with this
or their spouse has found out and they are now lonely or alone.
So let me hear your thoughts as to this thing we do, this unmanly thing that seems to be deep inside
Always your friend Rachael Leigh