Nobody wants to see a good thing ruined, but how far is to far until a person gets tierd of it, or you just push to far. I was blessed with a wife who loves every aspect of my dressing, having a husband, father to her kids and a (girl) friend. She loves being the only one I trust and knows about my big secret life, and loves the thrill of when I underdress and she knows what I'm wearing under.
She tells me that talking to her friends and co-workers non of them have a open relationship that we do, she believes the dressing is our bond, she loves shopping together, trying on things and modelling for each other and sharing clothes and other items.
My dressing through the years fluctuates up and down, but lately it's been at a all time high, in the winter months I wear tights to work and when I get home I put on pantyhose and usally wear tights to bed. My wife made a comment to give my legs a break and let them breathe for a while.
Of course human nature we always want more and always want to move forward, as of lately when opportunity doesn't come at home for a while and my wife tells me to take a drive and release some stress and just do whatever makes me happy. When I go for my drives I never leave the car, I just drive around, I don't like to tease or draw the wrong attention but my legs are my only fem quality so I do like to show them and maybe do hike the skirt up alittle. My problem is that I'm getting addicted, the feeling of the wig, the taste of the lip-stick, and the feeling of the earrings dangeling on my neck, it just feels so great to be dressed and present myself as a women. It feels great that the odd van or truck driver checks me out, but my car has tinted windows so I don't think they see much.
It's a lot of work to get dressed for a drive and most of the time I have to do it in the car, no matter how tierd iam I will force myself for the drive. My wife believes that I think I'm invisible, and tells me that if I ever get outted that I will be devastated and get depressed and may even consider doing something stupid to myself.
Last night my wife asked me to pick something up for her, I asked her since I'm out on the way back if I could spend alittle time out driving dressed, it wasn't a problem and I did and it was great again, but when I came home my wife was watching TV alone on a Saturday night. I apologized but in my defence I didn't know the kids went out, she said it wasn't a problem and she didn't mind, but I felt bad her being alone.
It's all I think about, it's all I want to do, I want to just drive dressed all day long, I'm finding it harder to control this feeling and it depresses me and frustrates me knowing I can't. I know I know what you are all seeing, it starts off with the drive, and the other night I had to fight back the urge to get out of the car and put gas. I guess it's a matter of time before I get the courage to gas the car, then the drive thru, and maybe step out of the car for short periods. I'm seeing the cycle that I read about here a lot, it starts slow and evolves quickly, my worry is how much of this is my wife willing obsorbe and how patient is she going to be with me out more. A major part of her exceptiing it is because she knows I want to keep it low and don't want to come out with it. I have it good now, but I have a feeling these stronger urges that I'm finding harder and harder to control is going to ruin what I have now.
I really wish I didn't take that first drive and always wonder why I could never just be happy with what I have and why is it always so complicated.
Everytime I walk out that door I'm taking a chance and how long before my wife will complain about her being alone. I was in a good place a while ago, I was able to control it and I really understood where I was with the dressing, but know I'm getting these uncontrollable urges.
Sorry I had to let out, I should be telling this to my wife but I fear I might put pressure on her, and hopefully these urges wills subside and maybe more controllable. Thanks for listening and if you have any advice feel free to share, I could really use a nother persons opinion.