It's been a few weeks since I was last on here and things are going much better.
The longer I'm on Hormones; the more I feel human, in my case.
It's funny, I look back and realize just how bad I felt about myself for most of my life. I think mostly at the back of my mind or something.
But, now I can't believe how much better I feel about who I am without feeling like the Elephant Man or something.
I seem to have pleasant surprises a lot more frequently, that often make me smile or laugh to myself.
Like the other day. I have gotten used to the customers correcting themselves from Ma'am to Sir when I interact with them. I keep it kind of Zen while I'm at work and don't try to correct anyone simply because of the nature of my job.
Anyway, the other day I had a lady make me smile and completely brighten my week. This Lady corrected herself from Sir to Ma'am. It totally caught me off guard when I heard her.
I also have a good friend that I go and visit regularly. She finds it amazing when I come over. She told me that the first thing she does is have a look at my face to see any changes and marvels at them every time I come over.
I like this feeling so much, I have decided that I will not let anyone take that away from me ever. I realize that whenever things get dark and someone tries to dehumanize me, they will never have that kind of power over me.
This Butterfly that is emerging from her chrysalis isn't just a beautiful butterfly. She is also a kind of bird of prey. Proud and strong.
A person through and through.