Wow how quickly life has passed by...here I am about turn 60 and all of those feelings I had when I was younger are starting to come back. I find myself browsing through fashion mags and just thinking about what it would be like to try on some of those beautiful things....I come in my office in the morning and before everyone shows up I take the opportunity to put on some lipstick...my favorite shade is Pink in the Afternoon and just enjoy myself for a bit before reality strikes and I have to get back to the everyday mundane world I live in. I want so bad to let this other side of me out but it's not easy. Just the other day I finally did something for myself and ordered a nice pair of heels again for me to wear around the office when I can....you may ask why the office well because I could never do this at home...my wife would not understand...yes I have tried to talk to her about it but to no avail so life goes on and while my desires grow inside I keep trying to suppress them over and over again...what am I to do...I envy all of you who can dress and just be yourselves....maybe one day!