All,
Today at church I got into scenario imagination. That is, what would life be like if I stepped fully into my Gina role? Told everyone, and expressed my femme self as I wished, when I wished, how I wished? How many friends would stay with me? Would my wife react in unexpected ways? Friends and such, what about them?
And my daughters, and acquaintances? I would likely shock many. My real friends would emerge. Others drift away, some condemn me.
And how would I feel about it all? Worth it? Or regret? Or spending way too much time concerned about look, clothing, makeup and such? Other interests suffer, and upside new relationships created?
Part of where I am right now (stasis) is lack of any support group. No fellowship, or clan, or home base of any kind. I am pretty much alone in this gender world. Retirement opened a lot of free time though.
I think I am self limiting a lot. But I do not much like conflict and my friendships are dear to me.
Enough thinking for now. Nap time soon.