As of tomorrow I'll officially have been on HRT a whopping 2 weeks. IDK if it's the hormones or the upheaval that is happening in my marriage right now or a combination of the two, but I've been dealing with some rough moments of doubt and fear about transitioning. I worry that I might have destroyed my relationship with my wife for nothing. I wonder sometimes if I thought seriously enough about this before I decided. I fear that my transition will not be as successful as I hope and that I might come to regret abandoning the life I've known for the last 39 years. I know this is common, I've seen lots of TS's post about doubts and fears fading in and out. My question is how do you deal with them.
Right now I've been trying to ultimately dismiss them. I try to focus on the original reasons I decided to pursue transition. I think about the image of a confident and strong woman that I have for myself in my head and it usually helps me push through. However, it's also come to my attention that there are people who transition and then regret it and some even de-transition. So I'm wondering if maybe I should be paying more attention to the doubts and fears and that maybe there's something more legit there that I need to consider. So now I've got doubt on top of doubt.
So for those further down the transition road, how did you deal with this? Were you able to simply dismiss them as fear of change and the challenges in front of you? Did you give them serious consideration and if so can you share any thoughts on what helped you determine that you needed to keep going?