I, of course, am apparently the all-time consummate queen of 'I will never' and being dead wrong.
Oopps:
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Never change my legal name
Never have a female drivers license
Never have electrology - not just laser
Never spend so much time (3 years and counting), money (yeah, just don't go there), effort (willpower), on said electrology
Never get hair removal down on the lower unit
Never have full GRS
Never finally fully heal from said GRS a short 10 months later
Never have more pelvic exams than my wife in only 10 months
Never experience level 10 pain at one brief point in the process
Never experience so much pain - physically - *just* to be anatomically correct
Never get my GRS covered at 100% due to the trans surgical exclusion on our self insured policy at work
Never have so many medical students see/examine me in stirrups (gosh and I didn't even get your #)
Never have a body with the same organ compliment as my loving and supportive wife (except grain of rice sized prostate)
Never switch to injections of Estrogen
Never switch to implants of Estrogen
Never switch back to injections of Estrogen (LOL)
Never not be able to hide my breasts
Never NOT want to hide them
Never live openly as a woman
Never, ever, not be seen as a male
Never routinely pass as a female
Never *not* be able to pass as a male - no matter how hard I try to fake it
Never grow out my natural curly hair
Never spend $$$$$$$ on my hair
Never wear lipstick
Never wear cosmetics
Never wear full makeup and not be 1/2 bad at it
Never work on my voice
Never have my voice be so vastly improved in 50 hours of instruction that it will actually be used at a national speech language pathologist convention this fall.
Never get a BA
Never have top to bottom full FFS (also known as 'the works')
Never end up having 4 gender related surgeries in only the span of one year
Sigh,
Never carry a purse
Never get a bigger purse
Never insist on carrying my purse
Never have anything in my purse someone else needs
Never tell all my kids about who I really am
Never tell everyone in my life about who I really am
Never be able to be free to be the real me - day to day
Never go out in public with my family as the real me
Never have more people know the real me - than know the fake male me (wow at 48 years old)
Never come out at work
Never change my email at work
Never kill my old work email address forwarding into my new email
Never add my female picture to my work email
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Well, at least I was right about my love for dresses.
I can and do wear them year round! LOL
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Yeah...I utterly suck. I sure don't look for a career as:
a meteorologist
sports forecaster
Husband (my wife reminded me of this last one)
Final thought:
If you are shocked at this list of crap I was never going to do.....you really need to see the massive list of stuff I actually set out to do - and did.
