Hi
I originally posted this under the introductions forum, which as someone said probably should have gone here. Apologies if you have already read, and also if this goes over a well worn discussion....
I'm really trying to understand what I've been feeling recently and hope that some in this community can relate to it.
I'm middle aged man. With a wife.
When I was a teenager I had some limited cross dressing. Wore mums pantyhose and to be honest scared myself how much of a thrill I had. But put it to one side.
Recently though I was burning with the idea of wearing women's clothes again. I couldn't get it out of my head. So I have done - with tights and skirt and I feel really good when I wear them. I couldn't hardly sleep for days with this constant sensation that I was waking up to something that has always been a part of me. I get these butterfly feeling thinking that there is a woman part of me.
But while I feel like there is a woman part to me, equally I'm comfortable being a man. And just being me.
The closest I can find is that I may be non binary. But it seems so hard to express or really know my own mind. It feels quite a shock at my age to be exploring this.
Some of the burning rage to pursue it has calmed a bit as well. It's not a constant. Then I think am I just imaging this, but it's some imagination to keep me awake for nights on end. But its constantly on my mind now. I feel like i'm going a bit crazy.
Has anyone had similar experience or thoughts?