Recently I've gotten rid of some stuff, whether donated or tossed in the trash, depending.
Why? Because I realized it's not for me anymore. Perhaps it was in the past, but these days I've discovered that it's no longer what I want/need out of all this.
Some items on the bye-bye list?
Makeup. Owned just a handful of "essentials," like foundation, eyeliner & lipstick, etc. I only wore it a few times this go-around. I've had it for a while, and it was just sitting there. While I guess it was fun to temporarily alter my appearance, I've come to find out that I really don't have the urge/desire/need to look/present as female.
Heels. Only owned one pair, purchased early on in this latest phase. Too girly for me. Hurt my feet (correct size, but aggravated a pre-existing condition). Hardly ever wore them. Gone.
Add-a-cup boobs & a couple bras. Tried, but no longer for me. Again, too girly for me. Felt fake -- and pointless & silly. Hardly ever wore them.
Various tops. Too femmy. Not really my style anymore. Hardly ever wore them. Buh-bye!
There were some other things, but just wanted to share the basic idea, as they all seemed to follow a similar theme.
Bottom line: About a year ago I got back into this stuff, after a several-year hiatus. What happened was that I automatically reverted a bit to my past default, when purchasing these types of things. I thought this was what I was "supposed" to do, since I used to genuinely enjoy & wear this kind of stuff a lot. Well, lo & behold, I come to find out that it's not really "me" anymore. I guess what this all means to me & how it fits into my current life (and foreseeable future), has simply shifted.
I realize that some here have experienced the opposite, but I've found that as I've gotten older, I'm not quite as "traditionally girly" anymore, at least when it comes to outer appearance. I no longer want to look like a GG, or present as one, or be perceived as one, as I once did years ago. I sort of already knew that in the back of my mind when I started back up again about a year ago... But I guess I wasn't entirely sure & was just going through the motions?
And luckily for my wallet, I didn't push on with the whole thing, regardless, and dive head-first even deeper.
Of course, this *doesn't* mean I've stopped dressing. Heck, no! But unfortunately, summer is here, so it's a bit too warm to be wearing my usual hoodie & leggings in guy-mode, which I still absolutely love. So until it becomes somewhat colder again, I'll just continue to wear some women's tees & shorts.
Anyway, I dunno. Anyone else ever go through something similar?