Since I've been crossdressing I've also experimented with exaggerated masculine styles (as far as that's possible with my tall but slender build). There I discovered something surprising, namely that dressing overly "macho" feels wrong, like a strong feeling of "this is not me" and "I'm dressing up as something I'm not". I also notice a tendency to behave differently than I normally do. I haven't had this effect with very feminine styles (they don't make be behave differently either). I also noticed people are intimidated sometimes when I present macho. Bad, bad, bad. Come to think of it, I've never done anything like that. Before I started CD (at age 40) I always presented in a somewhat androgynous way. Then again, no friends or colleagues of mine look macho. It's not something you see in the kind of middle class environment I find myself in. Note that I don't have any problem with other guys looking macho.
Apparently there's something there inside me, an identity I'm trying to avoid that I wasn't fully aware of. Gives me something to think about. This is the sort of feeling I expect TG people to feel like. But I don't feel like I'm TG. Now I wonder, do any of you recognise this?