Tomorrow I am finally going to make an appointment to see a transgender psychologist. I can no longer fight or suppress the other person in my mind screaming to let her out. Every time I do suppress her, it works for a little while and when she comes back it’s more intense every time. I can’t take it anymore. I feel as if I’m tearing myself apart from the inside out. I’m on the verge of tears as I’m writing this. Some kind words and support might do some good right now. I’m so freaking scared right now I’m trembling. I don’t know what it will be like finally taking the steps to talk to a professional, but I know I can’t live like this anymore. I hope this doesn't turn my world and my reality upside down, I’m on a fine line right now. How has it been for those of you that have finally sought out help?