Close to coming out but I don't trust my feeling

[Katrina26cd]

I almost came out 1.5 years ago but got scared and tried being a male again

I met with a new gender therapist and I am trying to figure out how to tell my wife.

When I start thinking about becoming a female I cant help my genitals being aroused by the thought even though it doesnt feel like it inside my head

When this happens I cant help but think Im wanting to do this to live out a fantasy and I don't know if I am thinking irrationally or my male hormones are clouding my thoughts and making me feel this way

I am at a loss of what to do

[LeaP]

You ARE doing what you should do - working with a therapist.

[Persephone]

Being honest and sharing these feelings with your therapist are the best things you can do.

[Teresa]

Katrina,
The whole process takes time, some of those feelings will finally guide you to which way you need to go, obviously if they continue you'll know transition isn't for you , the medical system won't rush the process partly because of the point you raise .

[Katya@]

Reflecting back on my past - when I just started to cross dress as an adult (about 15 years ago), I had some of those feelings. At that time, I don't think I had much of a dysphoria, more like a desire. Thoughts of any transition didn't come to my mind at all. That phase is long gone. What has changed, is not as much as desire to be a woman but more of an issue of staying who I am. It is when I started feeling sad and depressed, I realized that I started having a gender dysphoria, and thus the understanding I need to do something about it.