Those of you who may be following my story will know the downsizing and decluttering is in preparation for my wife and I to go or separate ways . I keep saying it is the best outcome while on the whole it remains amicable .
We were going through a list of who gets what when having coffee in the garden , she appears to have a thing about my male clothes especially the amount of shirts I've accumulated , as far as I'm concerned the new buyers can have the lot. She continued to press the point of sorting them out ,I dropped in the conversation that I really should because I will be taking two sets of clothes, her face and tone changed , " Yes she said you need to get rid of some of that stuff as well !" Some may remember it was all kept hidden in my redundant darkroom but it had to be cleared out and decorated for the house sale, so I had permission , get that !! to move it all into my daughter's bedroom, so judging from her comment she has had a good look at my things . I told her that I had disposed of a bag full of things mostly her hand me downs , I wouldn't be wearing them when I'm more open. I'm not sure what she made of that comment because I have always told her that her clothes were a very intimate contact with her, so knowing most of that had now gone left her very little to say but I'm wondering if she felt some hurt knowing what the clothes meant to me and I have now discarded most of it and possibly some of my feelings for her to buy my own . Perhaps there is a touch of jealousy seeing how I'm getting my femme side organised , I know she didn't expect me as a man and her husband to put so much thought into my overall look, I guess we're back to the MIAD image she has of me .
I've come back to my thoughts and comments on Ilene's thread about the controlling wife/ partner, I'm not telling her what she needs to sort out and go through and yet even in this situation she still tells me my male clothes and my female clothes need sorting. Maybe she can't or won't accept that I'm planning a new life, she had a conversation with her sister and brother in law along these lines, they have no idea how much I have planned and how I'm going to fill my time . It can't come soon enough to me !
These few weeks are going to be difficult, until we can sell the house, it's like living in limbo , we both want it to happen quickly so we can establish our new homes and reshape our lives . My son finally got that message when we said we would accept any reasonable offer and not hold out for the last penny !
Sorry another long thread but talking about these issues on the forum hopefully will help others in this situation or fearing it might happen to them, we feel we will be happier apart , it's not tragic but sensible for everyone .