Hi there lovely people, sorry if this is a long and rambling story. Recently my wife has been exploring her dominant side sexually which include many things such expected of her slave (me) . I suggested I'd happily try anything and in conversation me dressing as a girl came up. I then confessed to her that I had tried her heels before to which she was surprised but OK with , she then asked me to go buy myself a dress and highest heels I could find. I went to local op shop and found a pretty black dress and purple 6" heels, I'm pretty sure the people there were judging me but I didn't care. That night my wife asked me to dress for her, I felt naked and asked if she was sure as once it's done it can't be in done but she wanted to See Me. she took pictures and asked me to dance, well I hate dancing as a man but I was dancing, prancing, jumping and leaping all in heels I had never worn before properly. It felt beautiful and I was smiling for the first time it felt like. I danced and paraded around the house for a few hours like this. The next day we had a lot to talk about, my wife is Asian and where she is from men like me are gay which I don't feel I am, I answered her questions as to weather im gay or not or feel like a girl. During that day some memories came to surface of my older brother dressing me in mums clothes and after that me taking mums pantyhose and masturbating as a young child. Now here is the problem am I gay? Do I need to have a label? For me I'm a very sexual person and have always loved women shoes and clothes and prefer to buy my wife stuff then myself which might explain why my wife has an impressive collection if heels regardless if she wanted them or not lol. I've also always loved looking at tv/ts girls and actually dated one once, it was wild, yahoo and hot until i started questioning my sexuality and stopped seeing her. I still don't identify as gay or bi as I have zero attraction for men although having said that I could if my wife wanted me to have sex with a man while dressed up but still to me it's just sex and probably will never happen. So yesterday a wig my wife ordered turned up and again last night I was asked to dress in different clothes and sing for her, again usually this would be a no go, but I did as I was told this time with a wig and heavy make up. We then sat and talked about where this is going. I have often felt if we were to split up I would turn into a girl full time which surprised her but it's because I don't want anyone but her so if I couldn't have her I'd just try to look like her or something. Now I feel like something is coming out, I want to be more careful, do my nails, be a bit gentler and less angry. For years I have suffered from depression but now I feel different. As I sit here in bed with pretty pink panties under my man clothes I'm confused. I love my wife but she married a man not a women. I've given her a free pass to have sex with real men should see what to which she declined but I just want her to be happy? Any advise? Am I gay? Should I just put this all away? I know i have figures hide this at least from my young kids but part of me wants to go outside dressed.