If all the bad news about 2 major hurricanes causing horrendous suffering and damage to millions, and death to animals and people, and people losing everything was not enough to sober me, and make me sad, this past five days, one of my dear cats of nine years, got very ill for the fourth time since i adapted her in 2008. I am tapped out money wise, form big dental work, and vehicle repairs, and debated whether i could afford another big vet bill. My regular veterinarian retired last month, at 93 yrs old! A WW2 vet, also, he refused to charge people much money at all!! A great man! He is dying now, sadly. Regular vet clinics do a great job, but i was low on savings. So, i tried to nurse Minnie back to health or until i had the funds for a vet clinic visit. I have had very little desire to dress up, and indulge myself, as Alice since the Hurricane Harvey hit, and i don't mean Paul Harvey, rest his soul! The suffering of millions of folks including some of you, really got to me, and also the suffering of animals there, and also the wild fires out west!! Then my beautiful little Minniecat going down ill for the fourth time! I just felt guilty if i indulged myself im dolled up, sensual Alice time, when so much suffering, including my precious cat Minnie was happening. I finally got a vet clinic appt for ten o clock this morning, but Minnie got much worse last night, though i tried to comfort her, and she purred to me helping her. But this morning, after I put Minnie into my car, she died several minutes later, and i pulled over and balled! I then drove her to my late father's place, and dug a hole and buried her in a nice towel i had in my car, Crying the whole time, and praying that animals can be resurrected in the world beyond this one. I then went to the humane society, and looked a other cats. I may adapt one more.hoping my big gray jealous cat will tolerate another rival!! All the destruction form disasters has me thinking very soberly about life and how temporary and quickly it can be gone. My cat was doing fine a week ago eating plenty, active. Now she is in the ground wrapped in a nice towel. My tears have flowed. Not really feeling any desire to indulge Alice at all for a few weeks due to the disasters, and now my big loss of my dear friend. Pleasure in dressing is real for me, but also a distraction and escape. I feel i should have gotten Minnie to a vet sooner now, in spite of the costs. I did give her over nine year of a great life, and used vets to save her three times. The fourth time was too much for her. Maybe at a much later time, i may dress again. I have worn panties some in he last few weeks to bed but that is all. I think about how temporary pleasure and life is, and vain it can be. All glory is fleeting. Thanks for reading.
crossdressing...theirs an app for that 
My name is Carol.
