A crossdressing friend and his accepting wife have been staying with us for 10 days and left this morning. During that time R wore a dress nearly every day, usually some jewelry, and seemed very comfortable.
Before they arrived my wife made it clear that I was welcome to dress however I wanted, but despite this I never did more than wear the various female leggings I wear most evenings anyway. My nice safe androgynous look.
The reason I chickened out was, I told myself, because I felt fat and I hate myself in a dress when I feel fat.
But now our friends have gone, I see it for what it was: I just don't want to dress in front of my wife. Although I have her verbal acceptance, I feel that in her heart of hearts she doesn't really feel comfortable with the crossdressing, and perhaps in my heart of hearts, neither do I- at least in front of her.
Not feeling too good about myself today.