Hi everyone!
I am a 23 year old newbie crossdresser who after a few trip in public dressed is beginning to question my gender identity. The urge to crossdress began in middle school for me as a sexual fantasy of being forced to crossdress. It has been the only sexual fantasy I’ve ever had and I used it to masturbate every time I did so. Recently I’ve begun crossdressing and have done it in public a few times. I feel less and less male and am beginning to think I am transgender. I haven’t masturbated in weeks. Sometimes dressing gets me excited, but I never act on it. I wish there was no sexual component. Today I saw a GG dressed well and wanted to be her. I am seeing a therapist for a variety of reasons including this, but she is not a gender specialist. I’m so confused about who I am. I’ve always heard that transpeople know their identity from early childhood, which I didn’t, but just crossdressing isn’t me, and the idea of transitioning is kinda exciting to me.
If anyone could give me some input it would be so greatly appreciated. Thanks!