My tortured life is almost over and i will find peace and rest at at last in the dust of the earth. I cannot take any more of religious guilt, and family oppression , having to take care of my evil sister, who is a devil, and being an old loner guy, which are the most vulnerable to mass murders. I do not want to hurt others like the Las Vegas shooter. I will put myself to sleep, and unwanted lonely tormented tortured man who crossdressed, never got to enjoy a mate or family, and was so utterly odd and misunderstood. I only hope for mercy and healing and love in the next world. The pain and agony and torture and torment lately from family and others is too much, and rather than hurt others i will go to sleep.