My name is Jessica,
My birth gender is male but I need to transition to female. For as long as I can remember I have been interested in feminine things, even as a child I chose to play with female friends over my male friends. I have been cross dressing since I was very little and I still regularly do today, I just see myself being much happier and more authentic living as a woman. I don’t know how much longer I can take living as male, my depression and anxiety are through the roof.
As any woman in transition I am worried about passing and coming out to my family. Currently, the only one who knows that I crossdress is my S.O. and I know she would instantly leave me if she knew I was trans because we have “jokingly” talked about it before. I know I would encounter some resistance from certain family members but losing my S.O. would hurt severely. On top of all of that, I feel like I’ll never pass. I am 6’1, skinny, balding, big feet and big hands and needless to say I am not femininely proportioned at all.
I guess I’m here asking for advice, I feel a strong need to transition.... where can I start? Who do I talk to? Will I ever pass?