I started HRT on March 22, 2016. Within a couple of days, I knew it was the right thing for me. My attitude changed, I was calm, and for once I thought like I was looking at the world in the right way. However along with this mental change, came the physical change. The physician had warned me to expect some breast development, and to reach the level of a slightly obese male with regard to breast size.
Sure enough, within a month, some breast growth was obvious. At the four-month mark, I started developing breast buds and they continued to grow in size. I found that if I stopped taking estradiol for couple of days, they would shrink down. But when I resumed the estradiol, the buds would start developing again.
I continued to see the physician, and she did not seem concerned about breast growth (maybe I wasn’t firm enough) even offered to increase my dosage at one point and I declined.
Finally, earlier this year, I stopped taking the estradiol routinely altogether. I would only take it once every couple weeks.
When I finally ran out of estradiol, I noticed that the issues I had before were coming back, I was grumpy, and the world just did not look right. However in the meantime I had gotten used to my breasts. They had shrunk a little bit, and the buds had gone away, but I started liking them, even being able to look at them in the mirror.
I called the pharmacy and asked if there was any prescriptions of spiro and E left. To my delight, there was. I went up and got them and resumed dosing.
Within two days, I knew that was the right thing to do. The calmness and better perspective Returned. I called the doctors office and scheduled bloodwork, and will see my doctor next Friday. I will probably get some grief for not being a compliant patient, I am ready to face up to that.
In my last visit with my therapist about six months ago, she asked what I did to stay in touch with my feminimity. I didn’t have a good answer for her! But, it made me start thinking. So, I resumed shaving wherever I can reach, went for make up lessons – thanks Brook - And got my nails done last week - got pink polish on my toes!
So, my plan is to go back to my physician and plead my case and tell her I needed to take some time off to adjust to my body changes, and ask her to continue to work with me. If my breasts get too large, I was going to get breast reduction surgery, but continue HRT for the mental stability.
What do others think? Have you been in the same situation at some point?