I went into my bedroom and opened my side of the dresser and I was admiring how much fem stuff I have collected through out the years. My wife walked in and asked what I was doing, I told her when I was younger I would have never imagined in a million years that I would find a women who would have accepted my dressing and sometimes I still don't believe I have my own wardrobe.
Well in her diffence she said that when she was younger she would have never imagined in a million years that her Prince Charming was going to be half a Princess, we both laughted.
When you read this anyone would think how simple things are being a crossdresser, well it's far from simple that forsure.
A few years back I would only go out for a drive fully dressed on Halloween or when my wife had to go somewhere and she didn't want to drive, so she would bribe me that I could drive dressed. Then I would go for a drive when opportunity wasnt coming in the house, it started once a month, then twice a month, once a week and started gasing up the car dressed.
Seeing how much more relaxed and focused I was when taking a drive my wife would even encourage it by having me gas up her car knowing how much I enjoyed it being out dressed. We both started being concerned because I was going out more and taking bigger risks, and we desided that maybe I should slow it down a little.
The problem is I took a step forward and now I can't go back, I don't even look for alone time in the house anymore, now I look when I could go for a drive. Last Saturday my wife was under the weather and she didn't want to ruin my weekend and she told me to call a friend or go for a Maria drive, but I stopped myself, the Sunday morning I got up early and again I wanted to go for a drive and again I stopped myself. It seems like that's all I'm thinking about these days. I know I wrote about this before and sounding like a broken record, but now I'm thinking about how easy things can really be. All I have to do is keep it inside, if I get caught in my house I can only get caught by my children, but if I get caught driving or putting gas in my car I could get caught by a co-worker or family member.
I think to myself how simple it is, I have an accepting wife, closet full of fem cloths and things, more then I could have ever imagined.
Doesn't it sound simple, RIGHT?????
Let me tell you, far from it.