i dont know why it bothered me,
have been catching up on all kinds of medical check ups, prostate, colon, kidney, so i had held back on De-foresting my body.
well monday is TDOR and im speaking at our club....i want to be my "self" so i went ahead and indulged and put on a skirt and hit the road, went to see my friend at the club, afterwards i dressed a little more blendy, skinny jeans and flats, hit the local mall as planned, stroll thru the boscov, hit the shoe dept as i walked thru.....nothing caught me eye so strike one, hit the shoe store outside that i like which happens to be called the shoe dept....nothing really suited my needs so i went to JCP to check the discount racks......this girl is thrifty, again strike two, well i figured im there so i took a stroll thru the mall, felt like i blended as well as i could, light crowd no one really showed any signs of disdain.....cool.
so i made my way up to the charlotte russe to check to see if theyre skinny jeans were on sale....strike three, as i turned to walk back i found that someone who had been sitting on a bench back the other way made his way to where i was.....paid no mind passed each other and carried on....after a few seconds i heard some loud talking which ended with YOU FREAK.
well i could be wrong but i believe that it may have been directed to myself but i did not let on that i knew and did not look back to acknowledge i had indeed heard it, i let it go.
i continued back to the boscov store and went up to the ladies dept. to see if i could find a nice blazer to wear on monday for the ceremony......strike four, not really good at this shopping thing today, so i cut my losses and made it back to a store project i chickened out at doing dressed as the high school had just let out and the parking lot was full. went back in drab.
so what is my point....im not really sure, nothing stopped me from my quest but i feared the youth that would gather at the work project on my list but this thirty or forty YO male had to erupt with the knowledge he new who i was, i guess its why i believe the comment was directed to me.
i went out to be seen, to let folks know we are here, i went blendy, not as a MIAD.....but my thought was what if i was transsexual, how much ruder, or what if i was indeed a women....i like to think im attractive looking and have been told i was by folks that i know but the reality is im just OK looking and so are some trans folks and genetic women too, not everybody gets an A on the looks dept.
now i wasnt even going to share the story and it has been a day since but i wanted folks to know i headed on with my tasks and did not scurry away to my car, i did not have the Cinderella story we hear about most times, for me it was Cinderfella.... i chivied on and kept at it....so anyone who does have a bad experience on an outing dont take it heart, here i am in what most would call a liberal bastion and yet the jersey rudeness shined through, hope this made some sense....