I have been presenting as a woman on regular occasions throughout my life and am thinking of visiting a therapist. I would welcome advice.
The reason for this is in the pursuit of self-knowledge, but the following points are relevant:
1. I do not want to be "cured"! I am happy with my habit and it harms nobody.
2. I am not worried about my sexuality.
3. I am not interested in transitioning.
4. I am not looking for a relationship.
Every few months I visit someone in another city who does my make-up and helps me look presentable. Then I visit a club or CD meeting to meet like-minded people. Physically I am a very non-masculine guy and, although I am not trying to become a woman, I am told I look pretty good.
I would like to meet a therapist (en femme) to present these points and see what they have to say. Which part of my personality is requiring me to present as a woman, and why do I get so much pleasure from it? I like to dress in a very feminine way with lots of make-up, short dresses and heels.
Has anybody here had experience of these questions? I don't know whether to see a male or female therapist. A male one might be able to give me more answers from a male standpoint, but I feel much more comfortable with women or CDs when I am in female mode. The few men I have met have made me feel uncomfortable even though I receive a thrill from feeling desired.
I am relaxed with women and CDs.
Thank you for your attention.
Lucy