me i have regrets i wish i had known that i was not alone along time ago. in my 60 years i have only know two cross dressers one was my uncle,and the other was a childhood friend from high school didnt find that out till 5 years after high school .for the longest time i thought i was a freak or alone .and the women in my life hated this part of me.i just lost a good girl friend that accepted me she knew i loved to dress but i couldn't spend time with her because she was my current wife's best friend so we just stayed friends through the years. she always tried to encourage me to go out dressed but i felt if i went with her i would be cheating on my wife .i just didnt want to do that .my wife knew of my wanting to dress as a woman before we got together hell she was living with her female lover when i met her .when she broke it off with her she looked me up .Dont get me wrong i love my wife with all my heart .but after we got her friend to help me dress once along time ago the next day she told me i cant stand to see you dressed.i have not dressed in front of her since.in all my life with her we held each other once while i was dressed it was the most wonderful hug and kiss i have ever had .here i thought i found the woman of my dreams .and for the most part she is to this day but i find i missed out on all that dressing and when i was fine and younger,now as i get older i want to dress more i cant .now i have grand children visits every day .ilove it but i want to dress is it wrong to want to be held and told its ok .that they still love you while dressed .Im so glad i found this site it saved my life. ilove to read and see all my friends here its the only place i feel im truthful with my feelings but i still want that big hug i miss so much.i have raised kids and grandkids i want someone to pay attention to me and my needs Is It Wrong to feel this way