I another post I in the clothing section I mentioned that I'm goingto a barre class in women's tanks and leggings and that they are rather sedate but that I hoped to make a stronger statement with either print or shiny leggings but I'm now rethinking this.
Last weeekend I started to think what my motivation is to push it. I came to the conclusion that if I push it and all is still great will I not still feel the need to go further. Right now I go to class dressed as I like and without any apprehension, but ready to enjoy this difficult workout in a pleasant environment doing typically graceful and feminine movements. I'm confident that nearly everyone is aware that i'm wearing women's clothes but they don't seem to have an issue with it as it is now. If i push it and things change, what have I gained? If I push it and they seem fine. what have I gained?
I have been felt to feel very welcomed by both my classmates and of course the staff. In fact yesterday a regular started a nice conversation with me about the class and how challenging it was when she first started (she has come to over 100 classes and is really strong and her technique is near perfect) which was very encouraging. A bit later another member came in wearing the exact same shiny leggings I planned to wear in the future. She ended up next to me during a part of class and it got me thinking how would I have felt if we were wearing the same leggings. I think I would have felt very self-consciense and my focus would have been affected. And two things could have resulted, she could have complemented me on also having great taste or said nothing.
My conclusion is, that since all is good now, I'm not hiding I'm just not being overly obvious and I'm accepted as I appear, why push it just to see where it might lead. I need to dress to meet my needs and no one elses.