Are there times when any of you feel that your gender dysphoria is more intense than others? I repressed my gender dysphoria for many years and came to terms with it in 2009. Now that the cat is out of the bag so to speak there are times when I feel more anxious about my male body than others. If I were to wake up tomorrow with a healthy woman's body I would be quite pleased and beyond ecstatic. However, there are times when I get frustrated and question if subjecting my body and mind to HRT, laser hair removal, wearing a wig daily to cover my bald head and related elective surgeries as well as the social challenges are worth it all at this stage of the game. In other words "Should I just settle for living as a male?" I don't care for that option as it's clear to me that psychologically, emotionally and sexually I'm wired like a woman. My therapist and several transgender friends have helped validate my feelings and suggest that they are quite "normal" and not unusual as it's natural for people to select the path of least resistance. I'm scheduled to see an endocrinologist to be evaluated for HRT next month. Do you think HRT will help me emotionally focus more on my decision to transition? Based on the research that I've conducted many trans women report that the positive physical effects of HRT have improved their outlook on their decision to transition. Any feedback and insight would be appreciated.
Thanks!
Melissa