please read closely what I’m asking. I am early in transition and I define myself as a lesbian trans woman. I think my attraction to women has enabled my denial because as far as relationships it’s easier to find and date women in a male body.
I am to the point now that I feel disconnected from my male parts, so making love to a woman like a man would is less exciting than before. But for better or worse it is how I’m currently choosing to relate to my SO just because of the practicality of it.
I don’t want tips on any actions or physical things. I am asking how other trans women may have mentally made peace with their bodies early in transition. I look at my male body like a rental car. The female body I will have one day is in the shop so for now I have to use the rental car. On a day to day I can handle that. I just can’t connect with this body sexually.
I hope I don’t feel this way for months or even years until I feel more physically able to relate to women as a lesbian. Has anyone found a mental trick to feel less dysphoric.
Again please understand I don’t want to discuss any sexual acts. Just your approach mentally or emotionally to connect with your body for the time being while you wait for transition to change your body. Once I have completed a physical transition this will all be so simple or if I chose to live in denial and just act as a cis male it would be simple but realizing I’m in this temporary body and waiting for my new body is really confusing me.