So, I have observed that the reasons for getting dressed up have changed for me recently. This is actually one of the big reasons I felt the need to reach out to a community like this.
When I first tried on a pair of my moms panties and a bra, (early teenage years) it gave me a sexual thrill to wear them. Later in life, whenever I would indulge in dressing up, it was always because it turned me on to do so.
Recently, like over the last couple of months, I have started dressing up around the house for the joy of being dressed. There is something freeing and relaxing about being dressed like a woman. Sure, it is still a turn on for me, but it is so much more than that now.
I really don't know what it is that has changed. I am 37 years old. I thought I was done figuring out who I am. I know I am not "old", but I thought I understood myself pretty well 10 years ago. Now I find myself questioning some very basic things about what makes me me.
Has anyone else had this kind of experience later in life like I have? Does this sound familiar? How have you dealt with these questions?
The questions on the previous line feel so big, I almost feel like I am asking too much. I just don't know where else to turn to ask these things.