This morning my wife and I had a long awaited conversation. She knows about my dressing and a few months ago we both had a pretty negative discussion about it to the point of a huge purge had to take place as well as a you need to slow down. Well over the last few weeks I've started to see a counselor about it and trying to find out about me and as to why I feel this way. She's helped me discover a lot and those sessions I've been able to go home and talk to my wife about it with positive conversations taking place. For the most part she's taken to it ok and and has lead to be open about our discussions. At the time I still think she didn't really understand nor wanted to really accept the fact. I was also very guarded about what I shared with her due to the fact I was scared to what her reaction was going to be. I was afraid she turn and say pack your bags we're done.
This is where things turned for the better. Well I've been letting my hair grow out a bit. I'm retired military and so I've always had the short haircut. So it's been a a few months since I had my last haircut and she's been nagging me about it, "when are you going to get a haircut, you're looking a little shaggy, I don't think I've ever seen you this long." So the other day I finally decided to go get a haircut. When I was done I sent a picture of this lady with a really short pixie style haircut to her and said this was my haircut. Then I followed up with JK hairs my new haircut. Well thank to the digital headspace the texts didn't quite come in right and she flipped out. Granted my timing wasn't right and I also caught her in the middle of some work stress. Well she flipped out on me. when she finally got home late that night she asked to see my haircut in which I showed her and it was fine. We hadn't spoken for a few days, I normally give her time to process these type things before she starts talking. Well that time was this morning and afternoon. This morning she asked about it and it lead to me finally telling her what it's like to have gender dysphoria. She said I know, I've been doing some research on it as well. So she was ok with it but asked what I needed and what it was going to take. I told her my biggest obstacle was her and that I wanted to feel love with acceptance and to not be laughed at or made fun of when she knew I needed to wear girl things or clothes. The conversation ended up being very producitve and for the better. Because we then were running out of time she said we've got to go before we're both really late for work.
She met me at lunch and asked what clothing was going to make me feel comfortable in which I told her any undergarments and at times I just need to wear clothes to feel good. She said I understand what it is that you need but to what extent to do you want to wear them. She even mentioned the idea and said there are many men out there that are very "metro" in the way they dress and that perhaps that could help you as well too. If you dressed more metro and also wear undergarments maybe that would help. So what does a person that dresses metro have in conjunction with crossdressing.
I also mentioned to possibly going on hormones to also help with the way I feel and she said she wasn't saying no but wanted to see if maybe metro would help some too. She said she would allow me to take hormones but wanted to wait a bit before making that decision.
So what are ya'll's thoughts?
Nikki