So I am thinking about HRT.
I am 45 years old. The life of living as a female fascinates me. I have had these feelings ever since i was a toddler. Ever since I could remember. I remember my mother catching me wearing my sister clothes at like 4. I played with toy cars and trucks and I loved star wars stuff. But, I also loved to play with barbie dolls. I have loved wearing girlie stuff... dresses, skirts, shoes, hairstyles, socks.... and makeup!!!! since I can remember.
The feeling is overwhelming me.
I am in a relationship with a female, and I am pretty sure we are in a DADT. But, I am also very certain she will not be in a relationship with someone who is transitioning. I love her. But I am not even sure if I can give her what she needs. However, it is not going away, and I am not getting any younger.
I have tried to live as a man. I think many people who already know me, sense something about me.
What am i supposed to do in a situation like this? I don't even feel attractive as a man anymore.
I look at the eyes staring at me in the rear view mirror when I am dressed and my self esteem goes through the roof!!!
Does this sound like someone who is ready to commit to completely changing their life?