Ok, I'm old, 75. So, my recall isn't that hot anymore. But, I do recall when I first came out of the closet online here 10 years ago, I couldn't get dressing out of my mind for months! If I wasn't doing it, I was thinking of ways to and items I would need for future sessions. Just the thot of dressing was exciting and stimulating! It got so bad, I couldn't function properly.
Well, I worked thru it and came to an agreement with myself that worked. I'd dress whenever the compulsion struck me, whenever or wherever that was! Just knowing I could and would seemed to clear my mind. And, I was soon satisfied with dressing once every week or so. I lived alone, had the kids part time, and had plenty of opportunity to dress all the way. Underdressing and throwing on a bra, nylons, etc. stages were'nt satisfying, even back then. I needed, (still do), to see a pretty woman in my mirror to get properly excited and turned on. With no guy parts visible. Half way doesn't do it!
It was just today that I realized I don't dress up just to dress, anymore! I'm either trying on outfits to prep for a T event or a story shoot, or actually dressing up to go to the event or for the shoot!
I don't recall how long it's been since I dressed for no reason other than wanting to. But, I expect it's been a couple of years?
It's not going away, but my motivation has evolved. I dress often enuff, 2 to 4 times a month. I also attend 2 week long T dressing events each year. I remember on our 3 week drab vacation last summer, I usually get antsy to get back to Sherry after so long. But, the compulsion seemed to vanish until I had an important occasion to dress for well after we returned!
I'm not TS, just a CD. But, something's changed. Or, maybe I'm just getting old? Any ideas, ladies!?