Hi everyone I haven't been here in a while and it's nice to be back. I had an unusual occurrence on Friday night that I felt I really had to share.
Two pieces of information that might prove relevant to this occurrence are:-
1. I am a closet cross-dresser with zero intention of transitioning from male to female and I am perfectly happy with this. 2. For 364 days out of the year, if I dream at night I have no recollection at all in the morning when I wake up.
It is this second point that really stood out on Friday night or in fact Saturday morning when I woke up from having a very vivid dream. I was startled that I was recalling a dream that included sound and feelings. What I can remember of the dream, I was fully dressed and out in public, (which is something I have never done) and I was completely contented and at ease with myself. I couldn't have been happier if someone has walked up and given me a million pounds. As I was sashaying down the street someone walked past and said 'Oh, hello Danny' (this is not my Bob name). I felt immediately crushed at having been misgendered, the fact that the person hadn't recognised the male me was of no concern. When I woke up I still felt hurt and upset. One other point that I forgot to mention is that I had the opportunity to dress on Saturday night for the first time in over 6 months.
Like I said this is a very unusual occurrence for me and I'm still trying to understand if there is a deeper meaning to it.
Thank you for your time and patience.
Martine x