Ok come to some sort of agreement with my wife, I can go to my Static Caravan 2 -4 days at a time (dont have to hide my stuff), no questions asked. LOVE IT!, but wait, I know there is nothing sexual between me and her, I still love her(not in a sexual way), and this is becoming to feel like a hollow victory, Me being selfish still want part of her , my dressing (never going to happen now with her now), in the past she used to tell me to get ready and take me out to friendly pubs and clubs, but thinking back I made it all about me. Everytime we went out it had to be dressed. Pink fog, looking back on it, can see why she went to DADT. So here is another lesson learned by me. There is still the matter of I cant stop it, hide it, avoid it for a while, it will always surface. I did it wrong. If I had got it right I could have had the best of both worlds. Hope some of you girls just setting out on a journey read this, and maybe take some advice that may help you in the future.