Hello everyone.
I would say that I'm okay, but I haven't felt well recently. I wasn't able to get a job yet, there's still a chance in one place, but I just hope it doesn't interfere with some other things I have to do. Anyways, I have been feeling stressed and seems like I have symptoms of depression (if not already depressed all this time, but in a mild extent). I have recently experienced hopelessness, despair, discontent with life, etc. Guilt has come back, but for some reason urges too, and stronger than ever. I don't act on any of this, but I also don't know what to do, before I get obsessive.
I have just started to get therapy, in one of those online therapy websites, since I can't afford "normal" psychological or psychiatrical therapy yet, the therapy will be just to get out of the depression, I don't feel ready or anything close to tell a therapist about my CDing (should I?). If anyone has advice on what I have mentioned in the last paragraph, please tell me how to fight this before it takes out the worst of me.
I'm sorry my post here is this depressive. I'm also sorry if I seem defeatist or something like that. I'll be waiting for the next therapy session.