Okay so about a week ago, I went on a shopping trip.
Got a couple bras, a top, some leggings, nylons, a hair bow, and for the first time, lipstick and eye liner.
(In fact, when I went to get lashes, the SA immediately figured out I was shopping for myself. She was really sweet about it!)
More to the point tho is my sister had been on my case about it for a tew days.
She was upset because she felt i was hiding something from her when I left and didnt specify where I was going.
Me and my sister have a pretty good relationship, so I felt really bad about it...
Yesterday afternoon, I got the urge to undersdress...which turned into fully dresses half way through. To the point where I lost control and had the urge to try the lipstick and eyeliner, which was dumb of me because I don't even have makeup remover, it was no where near late enough for me to do any of this and my mom was gonna have her friends 12 year old over to baby sit.
( yea idk what i was thinking )
After a brief photoshoot, i remembered how my sister was upset that she felt I was hiding something from her...and so I decided to show her.
Texted her to come to my room and to be quiet.
When she arrived she was shocked. Not in a negative way. Just genuine surprise.
The first thing she asked me was "why? And if this made me trans" and I replied that I enjoyed dressing and creating an outward female presence, and that I don't identify as trans or female.
I made the comparison to cosplay, since I knew it would get my general point across.
From there things went great. We sat down and just talked about makeup, clothes and usual topics we would discuss otherwise, all in very comfortable manner. She even complimented me saying I looked cute and looked like our mom!
She talked about how she didn't get why I didn't just tell her and how i was being silly for being shy about it, since its not like she has a problem with these kind of things, siting that her fave MUA was a CD. In fact, she was more upset that i didn't tell her and it made her imagination run wild.
She then gave me her left over makeup remover, old compact mirror and face wipes, and said I should try cosplaying for the next anime convention we go to next year.
Needless to say, my sister was very open and accepting it all and it feels so amazing to say that.
I am so glad I decided to be honest with her.
Feels good to be out of the closet, even just a bit.
Cheers everyone!