This is a thought which has been going through my mind a fair bit recently, is cross dressing ultimately self defeating? Hopefully, the title of this thread isn't too clumsy and by the time you have read through this, you'll have an understanding of what I mean and will be able to share your views on what I have said.
We are all here because we have an interest in cross dressing, that interest lead us to ask Mr Google and he pointed us here. We may then have lurked for a while, we may still be lurking, or we may be 'fully paid up members' who post on this forum. I am a cross dresser, I like to wear women's clothes, not only do I like to wear women's clothes, I feel that it is a very important part of me being able to express who I am, to, yes, to who? Well, as I don't go out dressed, then, really, on a day to day basis, to no one else, other than my significant other. But, it is very important to me that I am able to do this. My need to dress stems for my inner feeling of having a large part of girl inside me. For me, it's not about the clothes as such, I wear ladies' clothes because in doing so, I am being me.
For others, there may be, there will be other reasons for wearing ladies' clothes. And no reason, for doing so, is more correct than any other. The other thing that we have in common here, on this forum, is that we consider ourselves to be cross dressers. In saying that, we would still identify, at least partly, perhaps mostly, as being men. Again, in my case I'm male, with a big girl bit.
As I say, this then is who we are and what we do.
The next thing to recognise about our dressing, is the extent to which we do it, the frequency that we do it and the 'what we're trying to achieve' when we do it. And again. for us, there'll probably be as many answers to these three as there are those of us here who do it. And again there are many right answers and no wrong answers. We are all who we are and do what we do.
And yes, as can be seen reading through the threads on this forum, it's not an easy path that we've chosen, ok, for many of us, (for all of us?) this is not a path that we have chosen, it's a path that we have found ourselves following. What is really quite a simple activity, the wearing of clothes, seems to cause all sorts of problems in the wider world, where the lack of understanding and acceptance of us, is huge. It is so sad when you read on this forum that another relationship has broken down because the partner cannot accept that a person wears a particular type of clothes. As my other half once said to me, "They're only clothes" and yes, it is as easy as that, but it's also very hard for some people to accept.
And that, accept, for me is the key word in all of this. The one thing, that we all want, the one thing that we'd all like to be able to do, is wear what we want, when we want, where we want. On the face of it, it doesn't seem much to ask for, but in reality it becomes more than some people, and indeed more than society, seem able to give.
And this is where, my thoughts in this thread come in: acceptance.
It's a simple concept, allowing someone to do something that is very dear to them, no not very dear to them, but an essential part of who they are, but maybe 'allowing' is too strong a word here, maybe, accepting is what it is, for other people to just see it and not be bothered by it, is what we want.
So, why does the title of this thread suggest that cross dressing is ultimately self defeating? I see this all as a chicken and egg situation. You can't have one without the other, but which comes first, the chicken that lays the egg, or the egg from which chicken hatches? And at the end of the day, it doesn't really matter, which but we do have to be aware that we have a role to play in all of this.
Yes, it is our need to wear ladies' clothes. I know that I can't go for very long, without the need to express my female side coming back to the fore, but I have to accept that I can't always dress when and how I want. There are constraints on this that I have to follow. And I'm in a free and open relationship, I'm well aware that this will be far worse for those in a DADT relationship, or those where the subject cannot even be broached for fear of a quick rejection and the breakdown of the home life. And yes, to live under such conditions is intolerable.
I know that people here will say, just get out there and be yourself and all will be fine, but I struggle with that. I know that I won't pass, perhaps I don't wan't to pass, but I'd like to be able to go out and about, not, in my case as a man in a dress, and not as as woman who passing even very close inspection, but as me, as a person presenting as a woman yet looking not wholly like a woman.
But can anything be done about this, and if so, what? I don't think that anything can be done quickly as changes in society happen only very slowly, maybe at a generational rate, which I would think would be about a 30 year cycle. I was born in the 1960s and I can see how as I grew up things changed and then, since the 1990s, as the new generation makes their way in the world, things are changing again. But, to get from where I started to where we are now, has taken 60 years.
So how do we go about getting acceptance? I suppose the only way that can happen is to make people aware that we exist, that we're a normal part of society and that we want to be able to live life as we want to live life. But, when we do what we do, we may, as in my case, hide ourselves away, not so much behind drawn curtains, but behind locked doors where no one can see what is happening and no one knows what is happening. But this is self defeating, because, it leaves society as a whole unaffected. Society may take the view that as it happens behind closed doors then I am ashamed of what I do, what I do is somehow 'sordid' and wrong. But unless I confront society, unless I challenge these views, unless society is shown to be wrong, then there is no chance of changing society's mind. Yes, I know that I have a responsibility to do this, but how do I do it? I'm back to the chicken and egg.
And then, on this forum, you read the stories, you see the pictures, where there are many people who are able to get beyond the front door, who are able to go out and about, to mingle in society, to be both at one and at peace and well done and good luck to every one of them. But, and here we get back to the thoughts that I've been having recently, the reason for this thread, that the aim, the goal that is being sought is to pass, to go about and live the everyday life, for some, all the time, for others for a few brief hours, as the women that they've always wanted to be.
Maybe though, this too is self defeating, because, unless society has seen a cross dresser, then society hasn't seen a cross dresser.
This is the thought that I've had, the point I want to seek opinions on, if we hide away behind closed doors, or if we pass so that when out and about and nobody 'sees' us, then how do we let society know that we're here, living normal lives, in and among them, in probably far greater numbers than they would ever have thought?
If we can get the message out there, there we are just ordinary people who want to take a normal place in society, dressed as we want, and presenting as everything from a catwalk model to a man in a dress, and all shades in between, perhaps most importantly, those of us who are all shades in between, then we've got it all to gain and little to lose. If we can normalise it in society then, those in DADT and worse kinds of relationships have much to gain.
But, it's something that we have to do for ourselves, it's our job to take it on and move it forwards and to make a difference. But that requires bravery, and I'm not sure that I have that bravery, and that, at the end of the day, in my case at least, makes my cross dressing self defeating.